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SWV2 'This Sickness' - Callum Murray (Calculus)

from The Suicide Watch v2 by Fallen Pony Music - The Suicide Watch Project

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This track was written by Callum Murray of Calculus, specifically for The Suicide Watch Project. It is a personal tale where bullying during High School led to self harm.

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Fall down coz you're wearing away at the seams
So lost coz you don't even know what it means
To fight for the one that you love but it's
So dark that you know that you can't even see
Look down at your skin, and think when you bleed
Is this what you want, or is it necessity?
To put a blade to yourself when you're down but
Think, is it serious, or is it just dirty greed?
And it eats at your skin
All this empty glass
Cuts you away till you're thin
You're full of shattered shards
And liquid at the bottom of the bottle
Have another one every time you push the throttle
Coz you know it's your weakness
You need this
Don't you ever think that you can really defeat this
This shit, knock it back and it hits
These bits of your throat and you bleed cysts
Persist for the bliss that it brings and you'll miss
When you tried to resist these things, pissed
Off, and you're drunk too
Who knew?
I guess that's the shit that happens when you're falling through
And you wake up every time you feel the blade cut
Make up to cover scars as your day runs
Never think about the harm to your loved ones
They think you're selfish, when really you can't stand up
And I know you feel a rush, so don't even lie
Coz I've been there myself one too many times
When you're being judged by every single pair of eyes
Sometimes it's just not enough to sit there and cry
And I'll show the world my blood because we're all the same
But it's coming out of your veins
From your pain
Your stains on the flesh of a fighter
Hoping for a future but it's never getting brighter
And it eats at your mind and your soul
And it makes you feel so cold

I've got this
Sickness, I'm dying
Coz I'm so sick of tryin'a forget who
I've got this
Weakness, I'm writing
Coz I'm so sick of fighting
To get through
I've gotta
Witness hurting
Skin is burning
What will turn this feeling into
I've got this
Sickness, im dying
Coz I'm so sick of fighting to get through

credits

from The Suicide Watch v2, released September 10, 2013
Words: Callum Murray
Music: Callum Murray & Calculus

Recorded at Silent Sound Studios, Albury NSW Australia.

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A girl on a farm, a group of young hip hop artists, a gaggle of music producers and a theme of suicide prevention...

A co-operation laboratory that shares the message 'it's ok to talk about suicide' through the melodic, sometimes haunting sounds of its young wordsmiths...
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