I cant be the only one to think this
why is the whole wide world against me stuff this
I swear I'm gonna get out of here
I'm gonna pack a few things, write a note n then I'll disappear
I'm gonna get out of everyones hair,
not say goodbye to a soul and I wont even care
I dont need them all I need is food and cloths to wear
I'll find a place to sleep, now I'm living in a nightmare
why is it whenever I look up in the sky, all I think about is how much I wanna die?
so I can be taken away to a better place
where the girls where nothing but a shoe-lace
you might think I'm kidding but I'm being serious
I cant think of anything worse than living life like this
I dont know if its all in my head
but I cant help it man sometimes I just wish I was dead

so sometimes when I look around
walkin or drivin around my home town
I cant help but to think what these people think of me
even tho I know they know me but they judge me
it doesnt even seem to phase them at all
always lookin down on me like they're 10 foot tall
making me feel smaller than I already am
I gotta try to ignore them as much as I can
I can feel me self-esteem going down the drain
it doesnt hurt that much I thought I'd be in more pain
I started to think that I'm going a little insane
cos I nearly bought a gun so I could blow my head away
but lucky for my mum I couldn't afford it
cos if she didnt want me she woulda had an abortion
and untill life can cut me some slack
I'll put a knife to arm n hack until my arms fade to black

dont be stupid matt, dont do that
theres more to life than being all that
dont be stupid matt, dont do that
you are who you are and there is not a thing wrong with that

when I think about it my life isnt that bad
theres a lot of people that had less than I had
n most of them turn out to be confident and strong
it makes me wanna write it all down n put it into a song
n now I'm thinking how cool it would be if people liked it
or even if one person in the world could relate to it
I guess that would give me a sense of belong
and it would feel so good that I'd go n write some more songs

until I'm playing to sold out shows
I dont need a house, my tour bus is my home
n now my family is spread across the country
but they're just my fans that are showing love for me daily
n now I feel like I know who I am
n thats a good feeling that I've never ever had man
I hope that it never leaves my soul
n now I'm hoping that I get a chance to grow old
so eventually when I die from old age
I can die a happy man n proud of my name
leave a legacy that goes down in history
thats what I found in this life is belief in me