VERSE 1
stuck in a rut no clue what to do
lost my path en route to who i wanna be
tarried by the heavy baggage carrying
im shouldering the worlds weight head full o harrowing
thoughts disparaging talk no courage anymore
taught myself expect the worst i deserved i thought
self deceipt by self belief complex inferiority
slave to inner tyranny no longer prone to harmony
unaware my fair share creating our reality
the hardening perception limiting ability to see
beyond three dee alone in suffering
feeling like only one to ever take a buffeting
never the freind to me i need to be more an enemy
a total lost cause i thought it all was
anxiety reigned supreme and defining my days
life's a scary place when you never feel safe

so believe me when i say

HOOK
i know its tough in the doldrums of the mind
i know its rough when yourself you cant find
let alone love or like or see the beauty in life
when darkness pervades all hides the light

i know its tough in the doldrums of the mind
i know its rough when yourself you cant find
let alone love or like or see the beauty in life
when darkness pervades all hides the light


VERSE 2
been down so doggone low ive wanted life to end
no longer would i have to listen to hectic head
id go to sleep wishing a new day wouldnt start
to depart the remains so charred by the blaze

crazy self aversion made felt like vermin
desperation for zen my heavy burden
tried to escape myself fly from my ruminating mind
didnt know my power to leave the past behind

on a downward spiral and feeling like a ruiner
everything i did or said was never good enough
to me my harshest critic, enemy heavy
thoughts the weaponry killing lifes melody

after years of destruction rage and rejection
learned to manage my mind love my reflection
i changed my attitude i changed my direction
view with gratitude the sum of my lessons

i feel so blessed to still be walking here
on this green earth amongst all i hold dear
amazed ive survived my attempts on my life
took trying suicide to make me wanna stay alive

HOOK
i know its tough in the doldrums of the mind
i know its rough when yourself you cant find
let alone love or like or see the beauty in life
when darkness pervades all and hides the light

i know its tough in the doldrums of your mind
i know its rough when your doing mental time
surviving suicide has shown purpose of my life
and how much we create with power of the mind