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The Suicide Watch volume 2 challenges young hip hop artists to tell their personal stories, or write to a theme of suicide prevention and awareness.

From haunting piano melodies, to epic choirs, frantic hip hop rock and stick-in-your-head happy hip hop ... this album has the lot!

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released 10 September 2013

To coincide with World Suicide Prevention Day

Facebook: www.facebook.com/TheSuicideWatchProject

Mastered at Professional Audio Services, Wodonga, Victoria Australia.
Released through Fallen Pony Music
(c) 2013 All rights reserved

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Fallen Pony Music - The Suicide Watch Project

A girl on a farm, a group of young hip hop artists, a gaggle of music producers and a theme of suicide prevention...

A co-operation laboratory that shares the message 'it's ok to talk about suicide' through the melodic, sometimes haunting sounds of its young wordsmiths...
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Track Name: SWV2 'Smile' - Electric Elements (Electric Elements & Zeed the Mantis)
Just smile for minute
I know it seems dark
The sun’ll rise in a minute
For wherever you go
I go
I know, it seems hard but we’re winnin’


Yeah,
with the sunshine on my back
Wind in my hair
And my life back on track
Its gonna be a good day
I post a smile on my face
Good people, good tunes
right place and mind space
I might place myself down
For a minute
Take a breath of life
Then im back in it to win it
Everywhere I go
I see friendly faces
Friends and strangers
It’s the people that make us
So smile for a second
It’ll be ok

See ive been there before
So trust me when I say
You’ll find your way
Through storms and bad weather
For the better or worse
We can weather it together
Cos there’s beauty in the world
Or in a friendly smile
And although you haven’t found one
To share for a while
Take a walk around
Share the streets of the city
There’s plenty to be found
If not, then come and find me


Smile, Smile again,
It's all about love
There's nothing to fear
Just give it all
There's life to be lived
It's all about love
Smile to see


Uh,
And for every hard road we ride
We take chances
And take it all in our stride
With our pride hurt
And mistakes made
We’re living life, man
And just making our way
I met a girl once
who tried to tell me
A smile is a tool
For her life’s true journey
This shits concerning
To think she’d never make it
a key to her heart
Found its way to my face, kid
Now she’s mine forever
A true beauty
Even when im down
She knows how to cure me

A little lovin
and a great old smile
Can lift me up
When ive been down for a while
See, the beauty of people
And beauty of nature
Is simple in its essence
But it’s that feeling that wakes us
Makes us better people
For the day that we’re living
So when u feel down
Just get up and get in it... AND


Smile, Smile again,
It's all about love
There's nothing to fear
Just give it all
There's life to be lived
It's all about love
Smile to see


(Smile) Just smile for minute
I know it seems dark
The sun’ll rise in a minute
(Smile) For wherever you go
I go
I know, it seems hard but we’re winnin’


Yeah,
So the lesson I’ve learnt
Is the one I pass on
When the winter gets burnt
Keep your eyes open
For the magic of life
Do what you can
to perpetuate the bright

What a sight
The side we soon focus on
Just find a key to your life
And where the hell its gone
Remember the dark
Only lasts for a while
So just hold on,
Grit your teeth and smile.


Smile, Smile again,
It's all about love
There's nothing to fear
Just give it all
There's life to be lived
It's all about love
Smile to see
Track Name: SWV2 'Where were you?' - Hendo (Cool Poindexter)
it was daylight,
just a play time,
bottles of beer in my bag sounding like wind chimes,
on the train ride of my life time,
all the people around me my peers surround me,
so much alcohol i could drown in it,
talking bout how we dont ever want it to end,
how we wish this could go forever and never end,
doubts in my mind but we just playing along,
we all singing the same words to the same song,
so poor another beer man have another drink,
im not wanting to think,
we on the dance floor like we loving the beat,
see em smile acting like it aint nothing to me,
we keep it going till we see the sun rise,
hear em all screaming that they love life,
and im like,
something about this is not right,

waiting for the light like when will it come
looking for the end but it seems so far
so many people but i got no one
where were you when i needed someone

waiting for the light like when will it come
I’m trapped in a tunnel
and I can’t get out
so many people, but I got no one
where were you when I needed someone


i see the tunnel coming over the train,
its like only i can see it and im going insane,
everyone's still dancing like they lost there brain,
and i dont realy know if i belong in this place,
so i try to go along with the people around,
but im feeling sufficated like im starting to drown,
hoping someone notices and helps me out,
can finally see a little light at the end,
but without some help it feels imposible to get,
i thpught these people where my best friends,
but they dont take a second look its like they dont care,
this life im so scared,
suicidal thoughts are stripping me bare,
i cant even think ive lost my head,
i close my eyes and drop to the floor,
the knife in my hand can not be ignored,

waiting for the light like when will it come
looking for the end but it seems so far
so many people but i got no one
where were you when i needed someone

waiting for the light like when will it come
I’m trapped in a tunnel
and I can’t get out
so many people, but I got no one
where were you when I needed someone

i open my eyes,
the light shining in,
on there faces they smile,
but what can i think,
why am i alive,
who helped when i needed it,
it didnt have to go this far,
i needed you but you showed no heart,


i watched my life fall to peices,
i looked death in the face,
my mind was defeated,
i let my life be erased,
if only there was someone,
someone that was there,
someone that looked closely,
and notices i was scared,
now where all stuck in this messed up position,
hospital bed on doctors conditions,
still thinking whats the reason for living,
Track Name: SWV2 'Goodbye Hello' - Stretchy (Cool Poindexter)
The things that I'm faced
has me feeling really jaded
and your being really patient
so its you that I'm thinking
Just say that you love me
even though I am crazy
The memories are vivid
and I'm getting sick of living

I'm getting really tired
and sick of bloody hiding
From the demons I am fighting
on the inside I am dying

From the drugs I am trying
my feelings are on trial
And I'm fighting for survival
my mind is going wild

Feelings are content
and I wish to forget
The things that I've done
and the things that I've said

Brother looks at my face
and sees through the pain
I'm starting to ache
but I say its okay

Act like nothing fazes me
when really things are changing
I'm being really patient
Cause all I need is saving

Yo I'm feeling critical
on the phone to god
I wanna quit that call
I wanna end it all


So goodbye to drugs, and hello to love
And goodbye to lust, and hello to trust


Inflicted with memories
that could have been the end of me
And I am the enemy
to the demons that befriended me


I'm getting butterflies
when I look into her eyes
Feel my spirit rise
you're an angel in disguise

You leave me tongue tied
the way you fuel me with pride
I know I said it before
you're an angel in disguise

I won't let you fall
I'll be your barrier your wall
I've got an ace in my hand
I'm not gonna fold

So just give me a call
if you're ever feeling down
I won't let you fall
I'll be the concrete on the ground


So goodbye to drugs, and hello to love
And goodbye to lust, and hello to trust


Inflicted with memories
that could have been the end of me
And I am the enemy
to the demons that befriended me


So goodbye to drugs, and hello to love
And goodbye to lust, and hello to trust


Inflicted with memories
that could have been the end of me
And I am the enemy
to the demons that befriended me
Track Name: SWV2 'Dance of the Moth' Skank MC (Cool Poindexter)
Compelled to dance towards the flame,
revel in thoughts of pain. slane by your own hand,
the moth dances with death, the answer is yes,
gonna gamble the rest,
all styles accepted this death wish, leaves no remnants,
paths may differ but all are directed to this tunnel of light,
among all this life, all under the glass all under the knife.
on a kamikaze mission
a battle Hardened scarred animal conditioned vision,
no decision he is steadfast,
the death dance his best chance to get past this enchanted spell he is entranced,
the temperature has risen, his wits about him missin driven in indecision insufficient wisdom
or is it something different was it one specific action
make him jump the limits or was it sunk within him from tha beginning -

He's driving forward blind man at the wheel no dog,
his mind his stormin forming its getting real he won't stop.
Colliding forces force this now formless flutter to utter his last word and fall with the others,
he floats off.

Theres more queuing now, he wants to know them, show them that there's
Forces there to control them, them, they, him who he was yesterday but the knowledge gained hasn't left
Him in a better place,
it's quick and painless, sick, outrageous
you can pick your stations but not the destinations
its the nature of animal.

Gotta try and find a balance, to overcome the challenges its apparent that this palace is where the damage is the bricks stained from piss and spit of the travellers he sees his friend sick with sadness,
madness grips losing his mate was the catalyst

his wings clipped and he flips into panic mode,
now knowing that he has to go,
its too late to let his actions be known,
they'll find out shortly cos soon they'll be home,
he shoulda spoken to him when he seemed low,
looking at each other from opposite sides of the peep hole,
ill see you soon bro, peaceful
as he let the lethal .303 go into his cerebral

Falling thoughts forming as they always do right before morning
Mourning the loss of his very best friend, left him to defend against the devilish red
Storming, the force deforming his normal fortress which once fought these maudlin thoughts from pouring
All in, straight into his head, he begins to defend but gives into instead

Soaring he is now soaring, his caution has worn thin forcing him to fall in, courting in the letters he sent,
to the forget him every letter was read in repent
morphing, the blood is now coursing pumping harder, each breath exhausting
for the friends that he'd never forget,
the regret was something he didn't expect

He's driving forward blind man at the wheel no dog,
his mind his stormin forming its getting real he won't stop.
Colliding forces force this now formless flutter to utter his last word and fall with the others,
he floats off.

he floats off, filled with the ills he never spoke of,
followed by his mate, they're both lost, they won't stop,
they've taken their winter coats off, so much left behind they will never know of, both lost, flying towards the light,
which burned like blow torch inside their eyes,
go north, young fella fore the chance is lost,
before we all become players

in the dance of the moth
Track Name: SWV2 'Send him back' - GIO (Cool Poindexter)
he wasn't, sleeping on his bed, i didnt know that he was leaving to visit heaven
like, all i saw was smiles, i didnt see the depression hidden behind his eyes
i guess it was his time.
i hope his proud of me, i hope his down for me
my eyes open but im sound asleep
i, see his face when i look over the balcony
i see him on the tv, even in magazines
i might be crazy, i know its blasfomy
but yahweh can you please send him back to me
theres so many things, i cant tell you
like, im sorry i wasnt there to help you, i'm
so sorry i wasnt a good enough friend
so sorry you cant see this kid turn inta' a man
i wonder when these tears dried in
will i loose myself trynna fiiiiiind him.

(chorus bit)
we were, just some kids
we knew nothing at all about the life we lived
im tired of being alone.

i, send you letters i hope you read em
write sem back if you can, suicide, is complex
one knife, a thousand tears shed
i, spoke to your girlfriend, she really misses you
she had to move cities just to stop thinkin o' you
i, dont, know what im going through
ive, never been here before, what im suppose to do?
sometimes i close my eyes, take myself back to two thousand two
you took your own life, but you ruined mine too
ill never get the chance to show you these songs
never see me rock a stage with people singing long
and i'll never know when this pain stops
every night feels like two days long,
its raining bad out, paindrops
stop....
Track Name: SWV2 'This is life' - Nede feat. Hendo (Cool Poindexter)
Letter to Kel

"Hey bro,
Kinda wishing you were still here,
Since you left brains a haze,
Hasn't been clear,
It was just straight out the blue, true
But Come to think about it that fake message from the cops off your phone,
Ahh I thought that was a joke I thought that was your sense of humour,
I didn't know you was depressed no rumours,
Man I miss you,
I don't care if it's lame man I wish I could kiss you,
Cam, channy, josh, dill, and everyone else got through,
But it was hard,
Ripped apart our hearts,
And that was just the start,
I avoided them all,
And slowly we all drifted apart I felt,
Was a living hell,
Really a living hell,
I couldn't open up,
I closed shut,
Now I'm hoping bud,
Your story can save everyone."


Yeah alright I get it,
Life's hard but the passed past dont regret it,
If ya make a mistake don't fret it,
Just exempt it,
The lights only green for a second,
And shit leaves us with a thousand questions,
Maybe not knowing the answers a blessing,
Time will fly by if you keep stressing,
If you got a problem flex it,
Rip it apart if ya can't mend it,
don't dwell on thought you'll just gonna stress it,
It's a message, it's a heritage,
That everyone should know,
One instant to change a thousand lives,
One instant to change a thousand minds, that's all it takes,
No matter how hard it is life ain't going away,
You've got one,
One! Get it?
Please man don't end up like kel,
It's hell,
That day angels fell,
I was with him that day and he seemed uppish,
trust me,
Imma touch the country,
At the end of the day we are lucky,
Who said life was gonna be fluffy?


This is life.
Go all in cos you can't live it twice
It sucks
Don't give up
Just get up
This life
This is for kel and everyone else who
gave the ultimate sacrifice
They still in our hearts tonight
This is life
Go all in coz you can't live it twice
This is life
This is for Kel and everyone else who
made the ultimate sacrifice.
Track Name: SWV2 'There's always tomorrow' - Terse MC & Cool Poindexter (Cool Poindexter)
DAVE SPENT HIS DAYS WORKING AWAY
ON A JOB HE HATED, BUT NEVER DID SAY
A WORD TO ANYONE ABOUT HOW HE FELT
HE JUST WENT THROUGHT THE MOTIONS & STARTED TO MELT

INSIDE WAS A DARKNESS HE COULDN’T EXPLAIN
HE JUST WISHED THESE FEELINGS WOULD GO AWAY
EACH DAY A STRUGGLE, TO KEEP THE BEAST AT BAY
HES GETTING CLOSER TO THE DAY THAT HE ENDS HIS PAIN

HE COMES HOME FROM WORK ONE AFTERNOON
HEADS TO HIS SHED HIS WIFE IS DUE HOME SOON
GATHERS A LADDER & A ROPE TO PRODUCE
A WAY TO HANG HIMSELF FROM A TREE WITH A NOOSE

CLIMBS UP THE LADDER TIES THE ROPE TO THE BRANCH
NOOSE AROUND HIS NECK, STRAIGHTENS HIS STANCE
THIS IS THE MOMENT… HIS TIME TO END IT
WIFES HOME ON THE PHONE, SAYING THAT SHES PREGNANT

LOOSENS THE NOOSE FOLDS THE LADDER ROLLS THE ROPE
CONVERSATION OVER HEARD, HAS GIVEN NEW HOPE
RUNS UP THE STAIRS TO THE HOUSE MAKES A TOAST
THINKS TO HIMSELF THE END WAS NARROWLY CLOSE

A NEW LIFE ON THE WAY CHANGES TRAIN OF THOUGHT
A PURPOSE FOR LIVING LIFE LESSONS TO BE TAUGHT
THESE DAYS HE TALKS OUT PROBLEMS EARS HE BORROWS
NOT LIVING IN SORROW KNOWS THERES ALWAYS TOMORROW

EACH TIME HE SEES HIS CHILD HE KNOWS HE MADE THE RIGHT CHOICE
A SMILE ON ITS FACE WHEN IT HEARS HIS VOICE
GETS TO SEE THIS CHILD GROW, LEARN TO WALK
SHOW IT RIGHT FROM WRONG, TEACH TO TALK

HES THANKFULL EVERYDAY IT TURNED OUT THIS WAY
KNOWS WE ALL HAVE A REASON TO LIVE EACH DAY
EVEN WHEN YOU THINK THAT YOUR DOWN & OUT
REACH OUT & KNOW, THERES ALWAYS HELP ABOUT
Track Name: SWV2 'This Sickness' - Callum Murray (Calculus)
Fall down coz you're wearing away at the seams
So lost coz you don't even know what it means
To fight for the one that you love but it's
So dark that you know that you can't even see
Look down at your skin, and think when you bleed
Is this what you want, or is it necessity?
To put a blade to yourself when you're down but
Think, is it serious, or is it just dirty greed?
And it eats at your skin
All this empty glass
Cuts you away till you're thin
You're full of shattered shards
And liquid at the bottom of the bottle
Have another one every time you push the throttle
Coz you know it's your weakness
You need this
Don't you ever think that you can really defeat this
This shit, knock it back and it hits
These bits of your throat and you bleed cysts
Persist for the bliss that it brings and you'll miss
When you tried to resist these things, pissed
Off, and you're drunk too
Who knew?
I guess that's the shit that happens when you're falling through
And you wake up every time you feel the blade cut
Make up to cover scars as your day runs
Never think about the harm to your loved ones
They think you're selfish, when really you can't stand up
And I know you feel a rush, so don't even lie
Coz I've been there myself one too many times
When you're being judged by every single pair of eyes
Sometimes it's just not enough to sit there and cry
And I'll show the world my blood because we're all the same
But it's coming out of your veins
From your pain
Your stains on the flesh of a fighter
Hoping for a future but it's never getting brighter
And it eats at your mind and your soul
And it makes you feel so cold

I've got this
Sickness, I'm dying
Coz I'm so sick of tryin'a forget who
I've got this
Weakness, I'm writing
Coz I'm so sick of fighting
To get through
I've gotta
Witness hurting
Skin is burning
What will turn this feeling into
I've got this
Sickness, im dying
Coz I'm so sick of fighting to get through